こんばんは。いかがお過ごしでしょうか？私の地域は、風は強いものの、比較的暖かな日でした。
さて、慢性疼痛を抱える方なら分かるかとおもいますが、忙しくなったり寝不足になったりすると、痛みが悪化することがよくあります。ここ最近例になく忙しかったからか、一昨日あたりから悪夢のような痛みが続いています。寝るのにも支障が出て、昨日は3時まで眠れませんでした。痛む箇所は頭なのですが、普通の頭痛のような生易しいものではなく、寝ても回復しません。きりで頭蓋骨の中から抉られる感じの痛みです。筋筋膜性疼痛症候群という病気で、一般の緊張型頭痛などとはタチが違う痛みです。私は緊張型頭痛ももっていますが、それをほとんど痛いと感じたことがないくらい、痛みの閾値が上がってしまうくらい激烈な痛みです。私の場合はトリガーポイントという筋肉の悪い部分が、手が届かない部分にあるので、この痛みを和らげるためには鍼をうつしかありません。とにかく痛いです。体調が悪いと気分も落ちるしきついです。とにかく横になっているしかないので休みます。痛いよーー！
Hi, guys! What’s up?? This winter is colder than last year, right? At least, in my area, it has been extremely cold.
As you know, a patient who has chronic pain syndrome( such as fibromyalgia , joint pain, myofascial pain syndrome) could often being affected by climate. Especially , cold and/or wet weather is considered to be harmful for them. Hence, during winter period, I have to be very careful not to be exposed to cold , wild wind too long. And should be careful to wear adequate clothes, a scarf to avoid to being getting worse. I assume I have tried to pay enough attention to protect myself from being getting worse, but I was too busy to do that. Finally, now, I became sick, and impossible to get out of bed. I cannot even sit for a half hour due to extreme headache and neck pain, which is persistent and, caused by active trigger point, which is taut band during the muscle, producing intense hurtings.
Any of you, who have experienced chronic, deep ache ,might be familiar with tha fact that it– chronic severe discomfort can destroy all of your life , including career, relationships with relatives or close friends, and finally, your soul. I guess our souls are basically, full of joys, hopes for future, happiness with relationships with others, and comfort for loving someone, loved by someone. When bad things come, suddenly, you lose everything. Everything you wanted, you wanted to be, is gone and never come back. When you realized it, you might be depressed, feel like completely lonely, and lose hopes. When I was diagnosed to be myofascial pain syndrome, which is muscle related chronic pain disease similar to fibromyalgia , I was depressed, angry and full of anxiety for life. No one knows exact cause of it, no treatment ,which can completely cure it , available. No one could tell me when I was going to be able to get back to ” a normal life”.
Time by time, my depression was getting worse, even as I was getting suicidal thought. In this point, everyday is fight against ahes, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts. I did not have positive feelings, nor optimistic aspect. Then , one day, it turned out. Through some mind process, I have finally decided to accept all of my life, including my, sensitive, often-go-to-hospital, weak body. Before that, I have sometimes blamed my mum has given me such sensitive body. Now I realized that this, painful life is my destiny. Of corse I have been getting appropriate treatment to minimize discomfort around neck and head. But I do not know if i was getting better. But now, I am mostly positive and everyday, I’m seeking something good things but negative one.
I am stronger than I was used to be:)
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